Brain Battle

This weekend has been quite the oddity! I decided early on last week I needed this weekend for some much needed work and me time, to get my life back in working order...well that makes it sounds like my life was out of order, but no it had just been a little scattered considering all my recent and awesome activites I had been doing. So I was very at peace with that decision to just stay home and do tons of work and keep the possibility of going out one night an option. However, my indecisiveness and inability to not care about other people's opinions soon got me thinking, what I am in NZ and am planning to stay home and be a lame-o (and yes that is a word becasue this is my blog and I say so). Then other times this weekend I was like I am so happy to just be sitting here with no plans. For the whole weekend, the 2 parts of my brain had this on going battle with eachother, stay home, relax and catch up on work vs the go out and experience life part. This caused quite the rucus within my brain and I ended up not accomplishing much, but a hurt brain. I did finish some homework, so that is good and I did go out and have a ton of fun on Saturday, yet somehow my weekend just felt odd and forced and not the perfect "me" weekend I was hoping for.

Well I will stop this strange sulking and lets focus on some positive, I just have to stay busy this week, so that next Sunday I can board a plane to Australia and hang out on the great barrier reef for 10 whole days and then when I get back from that my mom and dad come to the land of the KIWI!!! I am just so excited for my life after sunday I can hardly stand it, need to remember I need to do all this work now so I can be completely stress free for AUS and for Mom and Dad trip. Well I think I will just give up for now on trying to scrounge together some effort to put into my meats assignment and I will watch some 19 kids and counting!!!!! Just am weirdly and strangely obsessed with that show!!!! Love Jane